Every day in our home we deal with something called Reactive Attachment Disorder. The unfortunate victim of this disorder has usually suffered traumas that cause their heart and spirit to defend themselves against the very thing they long for most - relationship, attachment, belonging, security and love. They do not trust, they do not feel safe, they have the sense that they have to take care of themselves because no one else will. It's so hard to watch them suffer when you're holding out to them the thing they want and don't have the ability to receive.
|You can read more about RAD here.|
My revelation was that I have been doing the same thing that my son does. In Romans 1, Paul talks about Christians who exchanged the truth of God for a lie. Here I am, doing the same thing. Thinking that somehow I can fix all this, that I can do it on my own, that I am somehow capable and strong enough to get through these difficulties on my own.
And I ignore the very source of strength I really need.
I don't worship.
I don't cling to the Word.
I run away.
I let depression's gray cloud cover over me.
I quit meeting with encouragement.
|Source: The Neon Dove|
But here I am rejecting it, running away from it.
We are built for relationship. God designed us to long for it.
We will attach to something because we have to.
So if I'm not running toward the truth then what have I been doing?
Exchanging the truth of God for a lie
Silly, silly girl.
Today I'm asking God to take down my defenses. To help me let go of my own paltry strength so He can come in and do some housecleaning.
I pray that today you will take hold of the truth.
He IS our strong tower. (Proverbs 18:10)
He surrounds us with His strength. (psalm 32:7)
He does have the whole world in His hands, including you and me and my long list of negative things...
|Source: Seasoned Joy|