This adjustment is not easy. While I longed to be home while in the hospital, now that I'm here I long for the quiet and simple routine of taking care of me and Elizabeth and our tiny corner of the world. The house is a disaster, the fridge is full of food that needs to be tossed (things still in there from before E came into the world), laundry is piled up. Yesterday I never got around to getting dressed, I was going to and then I needed to nurse, then I had a nap, then it was time to nurse again and nap again and have a bath and then it was time to go to bed. It's hard to even find time to eat at normal times.
Today is the first day that I'm feeling somewhat human. The fog is lifting a little. I have to remember that God said He would give me all the grace I need to do all the things that He has ordained for me to do this day. I am SOOOOOOOOOOO thankful for my amazing husband who has kept things together as he can while working and taking care of me.
I highly recommend the two weeks of doing absolutely nothing. It hasn't been quite two weeks yet but I'm thankful for the time I've had so far of just sitting and taking care of me and Elizabeth. That's one thing the hospital is good for - even though you don't really sleep there. I'm beginning to get restless though, to want to get up and start vacuuming and cleaning and what have you. I need to let it be for now.
The kids have been somewhat helpful - my big boy particularly - he is so helpful, he does a great job of laundry! The kids have helped make lunches and I can commandear from the couch for tidying. We haven't done a lick of 'school' for two weeks. But they're all getting well - the noise level supports that fact!! :)
Yup, lots of adjustment. Transition is never easy - Lord help us all to just take up our cross for this one day and not worry about the rest. Give us Your rest Lord, grant us peace...